An extramarital
affair goes badly awry.
Would she act as she does she asks
herself?
Yes, she
would she believes for sure.
Hasn't she
abandoned what she takes for above price always only for such a short but
euphoric and thrilling encounter just with him?
Yes, nothing
can terminate her determination to try she is certain about.
Has that
occurred to her that endless sorrow and nonstop missing after that is a major part of
her life?
Yes, she leads a life on her own she has
learned.
But, she can’t lie herself anymore. She is losing her time, the possible seems impossible and bravery is giving ground. It is not reversible she has thought about it recently. She learns she has no other choice left but goes through the rest of her life with regrets but satisfaction as well. It is her destiny.
On this very last moment, she suppresses the urge to tuck her arm in his. She follows his steps like others in silence out of the main conference room. It seems to her it isn’t silence at all but the fulfillment of her dream so unbelievable but real.
It just
happened.
This
constant concern for a man was a strange new feeling to her when the first time
she met him. He acted differently from others who liked to swing by her desk
and chat. She was hungering for his attention when he came to her office and deeply
feeling of inexplicable intimacy. She didn’t miss the catch in his voice and
his endearing smile on his face. Before him she was never drowned in feeling so
foreign to her truly.
Her
vulnerability to say “no” was obvious when she only felt an almost irresistible
charm about him. She nodded, turned around and sashayed off, hiding her smiles
and thrilled at the invitation he offered a week after they worked together. She
should not go on that date in all conscience, but she did.
How could her emotions play such tricks on her and blind her to temptation? Did not she see the shining ring on his finger? Did not she know he was a consultant from the headquarters overseas and only stayed in a short while? Was he the sort of man who would lure a woman into an affair? Didn’t guilty conscience chew her up? Wasn’t she struggling against restlessness? She should not follow her heart, but she did.
Once she was a devout
follower.
Morality
is a must. If infidelity brings troubles
inevitably at any moment, why is it overlooked and why is there
no protection against it?
She
was a one who studied Buddhist Bible and despised the quest of desires.
She wondered then why people go after the desires if they do not bring people a fruitful result but a
delusion. The destination of the desires could make one hurt and agony with
endless remorse remains. How come one would put the faith and future in the
hands of another one who was not realistic? Wasn’t one equipped with abilities
of weighing
the pros and the cons if there were such things? Why couldn’t one stop the foolish when it just budded? How
could one be sure it was true love and wouldn’t confound one’s mind? Wasn’t peace in mind a definite
goal to pursue?
Having a shotgun wedding like her
sister was out of her imagination. She remembered her sister did not come home
with her girl baby for at least a year after marrying out. She also observed
the sadness in the eyes of her mother when the neighbors asked about her
sister. What tortured her mother was often in her thoughts, like a warning
to her or a burden on her.
Morality
was once one of her principles to follow. Her mother should not suffer
humiliation of shame her sister brought to her family again. It might be that
she held on to an unhealthy amount of distrust when it came to men, who seemed
unpredictable. For the most part, she wasn’t fond of men because the only example
she had was her father. She questioned about what people called love might be only
adoration out of the unexplainable in the eyes of the beholder.
Besides, she didn’t intend to give a friendly response to any young man because she was happy what she was, a soul without need of a companion. Being a celibate might be an option she believed.
She did learn that marriages were full of secrets. But, she believed that it was much better to start a marriage without a mistake especially against traditions. She met her fiancé on a blind date her mother arranged for her. In the eyes of her fiancé, she was a young lady of faithfulness, beauty, hard working and submissive as her mother described.
He agreed with what she believed about loyalty, which was the main point to get together for a married couple. An agreement was made that a marriage couldn't survive from betrayal, which was not tolerated definitely.
Now, she has given such inconsequential explanations for the absence of family gatherings for almost three months.
A real touch she
has been moved by.
She
really wants to spend more time with him. Loyalty in return between them is
unsaid and buried in the depth of her heart. What they are to each other is not
open to discussion either.
The
worries of coming to an end are out-of-bounds for conversation with him. She knows
he knows this is never a forever thing. It never
goes any further. Without a doubt, she has to cut him out from her life if she
tries very hard with all her strength and efforts she wishes.
She
spins her mind to imagine how her life moves on after tonight. But, she’s feeling
a strong emotion -- a letting go and a desire to give herself to him. She knows
there won’t be words from him but sorrows that will surely stay with her after
his leaving. How can she erase the memories of him with her weak will?
He
is going to take a midnight flight and leaves for good. What she gets now is no
more than four hours. It is closure with him. The tears come without rhyme
or reason while she is walking to his rental car where he has been waiting for
her after the meeting.She
wipes her tears, opens the door without any hesitation and slips onto the
passenger seat.
In Taiwan a spouse is entitled to sue his/her spouse when there is some evidence showing the intercourse with the third party
does occur, both of whom officially commit a crime for adultery according to
the family law.
Infidelity,
more commonly called cheating, is the action or state of being unfaithful to
one’s partner when a promise or a mutual agreement of exclusivity exists in a
marriage. Inevitable discussions on the painful topic of infidelity tend to get
heated and some of them delve into this topic in the civil law in Taiwan because it does
affect the lives of so many.
It’s
believed that men are more likely to give in to temptation because they’re more attempted to
taste sort of danger and challenge. And it seems that they are easily motivated by vicarious curiosities due to nature probably.
One
might agree with the statement that infidelity occurs due to delight and
temptation physical and/or emotional. It also could be the lack of emotional
intimacy with or appreciation and respect from their spouse or partner in their
current relationship.
