Can he gain a return ticket?
Being a mother
didn’t make her any less of an attractive woman, just as being a charming woman
didn’t make her less of an indulgent mother to her daughter. She and her
husband used to be a good match in whatever.
Smiling ruefully
for how he could have been so stupid and thoughtless and shortsighted, he tried
to lie her. But, she’d pressed him and he’d finally admitted the truth -- a
onetime thing, he claimed it was. He once swore to love her and be faithful to
her forever. It was over that one mistake to cheat on her turned her marriage
to an end. He wasn’t justified in counting up only once.
It seemed in split second that everything changed. Would she move on with her life without him? She said it clearly without hesitation as her mother mentioned her to act, and in a steady voice that he thought belied her awkward anxiety and destined for uncertain future too.
Anxiety crawled up
her spine and another headache was taking root. She convinced herself that he
wasn’t worth remembering.
Of course, the
memories were so vivid that she still felt the excitement. Then no one
disagreed with it the sight of a very-good-looking young man looped with her
arm certainly gained her something she was very proud of and elated.
It seemed just a blink. not years ago but yesterday…
She thought it had
been the uninvited discovery of cheating and if she didn’t reveal it, she could
have lived a different life.
She recalled how surprised
she was then when her mother was clam and uttered those to her, an impeccable bride so young
and gorgeous:
◎If you are pleased with what you are, you
know how grateful it is. And, I will pray for your joy always. But,
◎If you find you feel happier alone than
with your husband, it means being single is better than with whomever you are
with. If you are vulnerable emotionally, you have to learn to get strong. Or
you lose your identity and satisfaction won’t be gained when you don’t fight
for yourself.
◎If you feel lonely after breaking up, you
have to find another one, and don’t sorrow for what you have done. What has
done is done.
◎Think hard what you really want from the
one you choose and live with, instead of meeting the need of his. You must keep
to the basic demand for yourself. What else do you leave for yourself if you are
the one to give in completely and he isn’t intent to learn how to “give
and take?”
◎Trust yourself and give yourself a try when
needed. Do it without hesitation and don’t regret! I will support you no matter
what you decide to do and you understand that!
She’d learned to
be good at concealing emotions from others, especially from him. Her leaving with
her daughter from him would be a wound in his heart, and he thought it was totally
worth the wait if she could forgive him someday. It was unavoidable that he
deeply felt constant pangs of guilt for what he’d put her through.
The only thing
that supported him during that time, which he learned from also allowed him to
build the strength needed to survive, was a weird thought of joining with her
again one day.
Or should he be
better off letting the past stay in the past where it belonged, but how could
he let it slip out of him, a wonderful time of his entire life? Why did he
blurt out in front of her that there wouldn’t a woman a threat
to their marriage ever?
Could he do that
with his will, usually strong but not now, to resist the temptation of begging
her to come back to him? She
knew love was such a fragile thing, and it was her luck if they could have been what they were.
This turned into a
standoff – that she didn’t bring up anything like “divorce”
or “separation.”
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